Time away..

I realized this morning that I had not blogged in awhile. The reason I started this blog is to become a better writer and to share my experiences as a mom and recipes that I love. I guess I haven't had much to say...I did make some great recipes lately, most of them come from the web I will try and include the links to them in a future blog. I had my oldest boy home for a bit for spring break and that went pretty good, I miss him so much, I have always shared custody with his dad but had primary residence and now he has been at his dads  for a couple of years, he decided he wanted to go spend some time at his dads when he was 10 and I have always let him make choices for  himself so that he learns what it means to live with the consequences of your actions. He has been doing amazing there and I am so proud of him. His grades have come up and he is excelling at his studies, even joined an improv group! As a mother it is difficult to let your babies go off without you and seeing him excel without me is even tougher as I have always considered myself a good mom. Maybe even a great mom. Not perfect by any means but I have great kids and in order to have great kids they have to have a great mom right? Seeing him take off and enjoy his life at his dads is awesome and even though I have a bit of a tough time when I say goodbye to him I know he is going where he is loved and  respected as a person. I guess I can choose to look at it from the angle that he is excelling because of the love and encouragement that I gave him growing up, which I did give him lots of, but I also struggled through a crack addiction when he was younger and chose to send him to his dads for a year while I went through recovery. As a parent we hope that we make the best choices for our kids and help them to become independent and have the skills to succeed and when you see that child grow and make good choices for themselves it is an amazing feeling. I hope to see him sooner this time and be able to hug him a little bit longer as he is still my baby even if he is 13 years old.